Even though the two have tried to keep their relationship as private as possible, Swift’s lyrics for the first song on Midnights gave an inside look at their relationship.
She talked about the meaning of “Lavender Haze” before it came out. In a video she posted to Instagram, she said, “Lavender Haze is track 1 on Midnights.”
“When I was watching Mad Men, I heard the phrase “lavender haze.” I looked it up because it seemed interesting. And it turns out that it was a common way to talk about being in love in the 1950s.
If you are in the “lavender haze,” it means you are in that feeling of love that covers everything. And I thought that was gorgeous.” She went on, “I guess, in theory, when you are in the “lavender haze,” you will do anything to stay there.
And do not let anyone pull you down from that high. I think a lot of people have to deal with this now, not just “public figures,” because we live in the age of social media, and if the world finds out you are in love with someone, they will have something to say about it.
In my six-year relationship, we have had to ignore weird rumors and stuff from the tabloids. So, this song is about ignoring that stuff in order to protect what is essential.
Swift said that the lyrics “I have been under scrutiny (yeah oh yeah) / You handle it beautifully (yeah oh yeah)” are about how Alwyn has handled their relationship in his own interviews.
“All they keep asking me (all they keep asking me)/Is if I am going to be your bride/The only kind of girl they see (the only kind of girl they see)/Is a one-night stand or a wife,” she sang in response to the rumors.
Here are all the song lyrics and what they mean. You can also hear the song here:
Meet me at midnight
Oooh oooh oooh woah
Staring at the ceiling with you
Oh you don’t ever say too much
And you don’t really read into
Swift and Alwyn started dating in the fall of 2016, which was the summer after Kim Kardashian posted screenshots on Snapchat of Swift and Kanye West talking about “Famous” when Swift and West were at the height of their fight.
After that Snapchat conversation was made public, Swift went missing. She later talked to Vogue in 2019 about being fired. “A mass public shaming, in which millions of people say you are “canceled,” is a very lonely thing to go through,” she said.
“I do not think there are many people who can understand what it is like to have millions of people hate you very loudly. It is not a TV show when someone is “canceled.” It looks like a person. You are sending this person many messages that say, “Shut up, go away, or it could be taken as “Kill yourself.”
“I knew I had to change my life because I felt like I had no control over it,” she said. “I knew right away that I had to write songs about it because it was the only way I could get through it. It was the only way I could keep my mental health and also tell the story of what it is like to go through something so humiliating.”
I’ve been under scrutiny (yeah oh yeah)
You handle it beautifully (yeah oh yeah)
All this shit is new to me (yeah oh yeah)
During the six years that Alwyn and Swift were together, he made sure to avoid questions about Swift. He told GQ earlier this year that he hoped people would stop being interested in them.
“I think a pattern was set, which is that we chose to be private and not feed that side of things,” he said. “The more you do that, the less intrusiveness or intrigue there will be.”
I feel a lavender haze creeping up on me
I’m damned if I do give a damn what people say
The 1950s shit they want for me
I just wanna stay in the lavender haze
Oooh oooh oooh woah
All they keep asking me (all they keep asking me)
Is if I’m gonna be your bride
The only kind of girl they see (The only kind of girl they see)
Is a one night or a wife
Earlier this year, there were rumors that Swift and Alwyn were getting married. Swift has never been seen with Alwyn without her wedding band, and Alwyn said in an April WSJ interview that the two have no plans to talk about their personal relationship.
He said at the time, “If I had a pound for every time I think I have been told I am engaged, I would have a lot of pounds.” “Well, if the answer were yes, I would not say, and if it were no, I would not say either.”
Swift is probably talking about the fact that her past relationships and love life have been talked about in public. Swift talked about “Blank Space” at the Grammy Museum in January 2016. She spoke about how she used how the media portrayed her love life to write the song.
“There, it got pretty out of hand for a few years… Every article said something like, “Taylor Swift was with some guy—be careful, guy!” Swift thought back.
“My first thought was, “Oh, that is too bad.” I am not having fun with this. But then my second thought was, “Wow, that is actually a pretty interesting character they are writing about.”
She jets around the world to get men, and she can get any of them. But she is so needy that when they leave, she cries, and then she gets another one in her web, catches them, and locks them in her mansion. Then she calls in her marble bathtub surrounded by pearls. So I thought, “This could be useful.”